#13

i grabbed the lampshade, turned off the light
i needed to sit this through alone in the night
only through my vain desires, i got you to trust me
but the real side of me isn't the person you see

far back in the shadows of my mind and out of sight
the real me is asking to come out into the light
but i remembered the memories and the pain
so i rejected the proposal and pulled down the shades

and that one night, i have lied
to get you to like me... but why?

i am now only an empty shell, nothing tangible lasts
i just hope you won't have any doubts on who i am
however, sometime i have to change my ways
i just wish i will never have to see that day

i wish i had stayed inside and not hurt you
just once i could have been happy, i'm a fool
and that one night, i have lied
to get you to like me... but why?

© 1996, 2005 thomas bates